heartbroken 💔

 Yup i am still heartbroken. 

I feel a weight on my chest.

Some things I have learned:

1. I dont have enough money

2. I dont know how to do things like get a house, get a wife or get kids

3. I dont think ill find anybody that wants to be married with me

4. I am getting old

5. I dont know of any way to fix the above I had when I was younger so I would not end up in this situation now. 


So ya I feel like I am hitting rock bottom. 

I was so high when I thought I had a girlfriend. 


Man this sucks. 


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